I'm Back! 2011!

Hey guys, so I know it has been forever, but I'm back. 2011 has been pretty good. I plan to make it even better. I have to say that I am different than I was since my first post here. I have left all of my complexes and worries behind. Still some acne scarring, but as of today, no zits! And guess what? I don't even have to touch wood, because I no longer have OCD. It is just gone :) I hope you have had a wonderful year.

Today I got looking at time capsules and videos of people opening time capsules, and I felt nostalgic.

So I had an awesome idea. Because I am terrible at keeping diaries, my emails are constantly changing, and I always forget passwords, I am going to start an email diary to 10 years into the future. I am going to send myself an email diary entry every day, exactly 10 years into the future. When I am old, I will print them out and pass them on :) You guys should think about doing that :)

I will be using this site: http://www.futureme.org/

Dream Weddings. Part 1: Location

I didn't initially want to share these beautiful weddings, but I did not want to risk losing them. So here are my favorite weddings.

Location... A Wedding On The French Riviera
Courtesy of www.weddingsonthefrenchriviera.com

   

Here is a castle built in the 18th century. This lovely accommodation houses up to 25 guests.

This hotel, built in 1991 extends over a private beach situated on a spectacular reef between Corsica and Sardinia. After a romantic reception on the pier, you can keep your guests entertained with a game of catch-the-fish-with-your-bare-hands.

                


           This beautiful venue reminds me of Ancient Rome. I would
           let my guests....or insist....that my guests wear long gauzy
           Roman/Grecian style dresses and sit on the edge of the pool,
           letting the white fabric melt into the water. Think of
           Cleopatra's maidens. This place is actually located in
           Morocco.
  



                     Cleopatra's maidens

         

The Supreme Court decides to hear Walmart case

http://www.usatoday.com/news/washington/judicial/2010-12-06-walmart-supreme-court_N.htm

That is an overview of the case, by usatoday.

This case is one of sexual discrimination. The people against Walmart claim that they promote more men than women. Coincidence? I think not. I am all for merit and I generally pick myself up by my boot straps instead of crying "unfair!" at every little thing, but this is sexual discrimination. Walmart's defense was this: "The female employees of Walmart are too diverse to represent one group of people." Excuse me?!


Lately Walmart has been all about diversity, and you see it in the commercials. They have a lot of commercials with black families. Apparently it turns out that all of the "diverse" families Walmart likes to appeal to are just assets. I knew that, but now the huge bunch of morons who defend Walmart can agree with me.

And the "women" thing. 91 years ago, NO woman could vote. Until the 70's ALL women were subject to being legally raped by their husbands. Women are more disadvantaged than ANY minority out there. And any female would agree. People and companies preach "diversity", "opportunity", and "colorblindness from the rainbow of flesh that paints or great nation", but these same companies all use women to sell their products.

Women ARE one group. You have Women-Men, then it branches into nationality, then ethnicity, then religion. At least politically correctly it does.

Nice try Walmart. You truly are scum. I hope Target takes an initiative to hire more women than men, and you go bankrupt. Then when WE dominate the media and businesses, you can come crawling on your knees,  begging for your six year old sweatshop workers to come back.

Am I the only one who finds this wrong?

I am a young teenage woman/girl. I force myself to stick to ideals that I have approved myself with my own freedoms. Some of those ideals are good health, a nice singing voice, intelligence, wit, a clean conscience, happiness, family, friends, organization, higher moral values, a free soul, a wise mind, allure, and beauty. I see nothing wrong with any of those things, including outer beauty. Who are we trying to kid? Outer beauty is very important. It makes us happy. No, I am not just talking about how we look in the mirror. I am also talking about the ability to appreciate the beauty in nature without second guessing it and suspecting something of a more sinister kind. I am an artist, so I value beauty in all of its forms, including the very notion of beauty. But "beauty" has become a dirty word, hasn't it? It now represents narrow standards. We are either told subconsciously (not so bluntly anymore thanks to womens' rights groups) that we must have just the right amount of curves so we do not look unhealthily thin or unhealthily fat, that we must be very thin and toned and resemble the latest ethnic flavor of the month, that we must not be thin at all because that would not make us "real women", or that we must be the right "balance" between a flattering reflection of a man and a "perfect 10".

Beauty used to mean....poems, songs, women, and art themselves. There was no description. Now society tries so hard to play catch-up to womens' lib by attempting to define beauty. A word to those people, campaigns, and organizations: If you wish to express the beauty that you are so enamored to behold, you must do so courteously by presenting it beautifully, while realizing that it will always be subjective. Make art, make pure and uncorrupted people (children and people in need) feel good, and make your life a dance, for when there is a breeze, the people always follow the fragrant flying blossoms and not the stern and solitary rock. Beauty is a subjective thing which you must discover with your own senses.

Now to get to the point of my title, "Am I the only one who finds this wrong?"

To completely understand what I have just discovered, please follow these three steps.:

1. Look through this slide show  http://loveyourbody.nowfoundation.org/presentations/SexStereotypesBeauty/flash.html

2. When you are finished with the slide show, please continue to step 3.

3. Listen to what I have to say below.

When I saw the slide show, I was extremely impressed. I was impressed because I realized what truth these people see. I was impressed because up until that slide show, I had only viewed a few of those ads (I was familiar with most of the ads) as being sexist or inappropriate...at most as "Well, what are you gonna do?"

Which brings me to my title. Am I the only one who finds this wrong?

When I saw this cigarette ad, I saw nothing wrong with the scantily clad woman in the background. I hardly noticed her. I viewed her as a prop. Mind you, I am a young woman  with all the same body parts as the lady above, who values all people and would never call or consider a person an "object". Am I the only one who finds this wrong? But that is how they made her look. Am I partly to blame? Are my parents? Are my grandparents? The media is well-known for saying "If you don't like it, don't look." But I looked anyway. Now what? I can't be the only person who looked at this ad and many ads like it. I can't be the only one who viewed her as an object. I can't be the only one who was lucky enough to realize this error. The question is: Is it an error by me or an error in itself? Who is to blame? I have been desensitized. I thought I was a smart and sensitive person (I am), but I was desensitized to this big silver naked lady. Chances are, so are many adults, teens, and children. They don't even realize it. What are we going to do about it? What am I going to do about it? I will work on some possible solutions and post them on my next post. For now, I will leave you with this poem:

I need a break...

From comparing thin-ness

From comparing curves

From comparing height

From comparing skin hues

From trying to keep up with the latest stands on whether or not...

My body makes me a traitor to women everywhere

I need a break

My eyes need a rest from myself

I have been washed out

I must go outside and collect nature's pigments

And refill with color

The empty outlines that are left behind

Before I go, I will also give you some good links:

What You Can Do 

Offensive Ads

On The Campus

Today is filled with worry

Hello. Sorry for the hiatus. I haven't really been up to much lately. I just thought I should post because today has been very stressful. As you know, I have my eyes set on a perpetual diet. As you also know, it has been by eyes and my eyes only on this diet. I really want a body like Goo Hara's and Tiffany's legs from the Korean group SNSD. I do not listen to their music, but I find them so adorable! Speaking of Korean stuff, I found a new movie that I love. It is Korean and called "The Classic". It is very much like The Notebook, but still original. I love it.

Here is the first part of the video if you want to watch it.



I am also very worried and depressed. I went to the dermatologist today and got a mole on my cheek cut off for biopsy. I am so nervous, yet very calm. I came home and binged on 2 whole packets of Honey Grahams and Nutella, then half an Italian roll and olive oil, ham, and balsamic vinegar. I don't live near family or friends. Nothing eases the pain. I just hope everything turns out okay. The results should be ready in 10 days. Sigh. I will pray to God. Please pray for me too. I hope you all are well. I pray for your health and happiness.

I have been a terrible pen pal. I will try to write and send all my letters out tomorrow. Then I will do my homework. I am afraid to run because I don't want the incision to scar, so I may just have to do a lot of walking. Happy days, all!

Bikecott

http://www.wix.com/MissGigiLola/BP-BIKE-BOYCOTT?wsess=&gu%5Fid=51ebba17%2D7631%2D47c4%2Db157%2D4020113a1ff3&experiment%5Fid=empty&partner%5Fid=WMGs4POB1ko%2Da&orgDocID=cjSvtz%3Bhh0Q%2Da&wixComputerID=HW0bxCnTEKo2yS24AY5BmXY79yMip5IUJlpd5qyiUK1y%2B0NZ3V97oSL6yBdrwsv77RPA7BzL%2FZeG0uD87mv%2BCQ%3D%3D

Debutante balls

Just doing some late night-early morning Googling when I decided to search "debutante balls". Oh they are lovely aren't they?

Getting ready for her big premier...

Aren't they beautiful?

I think she is the prettiest in my opinion...

On the arm of her undoubtedly rich young escort

Their final big premier. This level of mingling is too nerve wracking for me to even imagine so much as walking down that aisle...

I got these photos from newyorksocialdiary.com

Imagine... a monotonous social life splashed with jewels, shopping, parties, and vacations in the French Riviera. Oh! For some reason it reminds me of Blair (juicystar07).

But no...sadly I have a vastly different story. I am more of an "All of Tomorrow's Parties" tragedy than an Audrey Hepburn dream-come-true. I can't imagine having such an important social event in my life, when I am caught in a noisy family that is the butt of neighborhood jokes (and the general back-end of our median neighborhood value). I don't have much of a social life. I will. But I sit and wonder what it would be like to be so beautiful, rich, entertained, and happy.

Now I am not saying that money equals happiness. After all, money can turn people into shameful things. Then again I may just be saying that to salvage the remains of my dignity...I had more of it before I wrote this pathetic post :/